General

Things Coming Up

I’ve got some things coming up and I’m kinda overwhelmed by them. As usual, I forgot my car registration is coming due. So that’s $96 in October. And when Yuba turns 4 months old, which is just in a few weeks, he’ll be getting neutered, another $95 + maybe a little more. And there’s little expenses that aren’t my regular ones I need to take care of. I could delay his neutering but I want it done as young as possible so maybe he’ll never start lifting his leg. I hate when boy dogs pee all over everything. And then there’s the $288 I owe Verizon… They’ve been sending me bills on the regular, so that really needs to get paid off too ASAP.

The first weekend in October is Bark at the Park… which I really want to go to with Yuba, but I need to see if he can manage to walk nicely on a least first. We’ve been working on sit and down though with the boys and they already have sit down pretty well. Down is a work in progress but we’ve just started practicing it a few days ago. I have almost 2 months to work on walking on the leash though so I think he’ll be fine. 🙂

I mean one way or another I’ll manage to juggle it all but I’m just like ugh! Everything comes on all at once! I’m honestly thinking of putting it all on a credit card… I hate to do it, because interest, but I could easily pay it off over 3 months and it would all be done with a lot less stress.

 

General

About Ear Piercings

A week or so ago, I got my earlobes pierced with a second hole. No big deal, right? Well, because I didn’t know any better, I let her use these little disposable cartridge things, basically a replacement for the piercing gun. They were fine for about two days, and then they swelled up a lot and hurt like hell. No heat so no infection but I ended up popping off the way too tight earring backs and replacing them with smaller, soft plastic backs (put on looser) to allow more space for the swelling.

Almost immediately, the swelling started going down and 2 days later, only the right one is a little swollen still. They’re almost back to being pain free again.

I’ve been super happy with my other piercings from this piercer though so I will go back to her, but I’ll be sure to request she does not use the cartridge on any future piercings. I didn’t know any better, and I’m calling this a lesson learned.

Beauty

Poparazzi Nail Polish

I think I have a new fave. This stuff wears great, and its currently 2 for $5 at CVS. The colors Mink It Over (medium grey) and Yin Meets Yang (black and white micro dot) pair so perfectly together!

Beauty

Ipsy Glam Bag #2

I recently subscribed to Ipsy’s Glam Bag service and today I received my second Glam Bag. The first one I received, I wasn’t completely thrilled, but I figured I would give it a few months and see if it improved. I was not disappointed this time.

First off, the bag itself is super cute!

And the contents are pretty great. I like that it caters your bag contents to your skin tone, eye, and hair color. That means you’re probably mostly going to get things you can actually use. Here’s what came in this month’s bag.

There’s an organic coconut milk-based facial lotion that smells incredible and its so light and easy to work into your skin. I’m going to use it everyday and see how my skin likes it, and if its a yes, then I can see myself ordering a full sized tube on this good stuff.

The Balm Voyage mini eyeshadow is super cute and a great neutral base color.

The mascara is very welcome because even though I got a mascara last month, my main tube (I’ve been a Mary Kay girl for ages) is about gone so now I have new options. Great since I’ve started wearing make-up again in the regular.

I haven’t tried the concealer yet, but I imagine it will come in useful. Same goes for the large make-up brush. I got a smaller angled brush in last month’s bag.

General · Health

Finding Myself Again (Depression is a Mother Fucking Bitch!)

Tonight, after everyone was asleep, I took a shower. And while I was in there, I realized showering is recently a much more complex affair then it was two months ago. I have antibacterial soap to cleanse my numerous new piercings. I have facial cleanser to wash away the day’s makeup. I have body wash for the rest of my skin. I have an expensive tar shampoo to wash my hair and soothe my scalp. And after I get out, I have a fancy, delicious smelling coconut oil conditioner to work into my hair to make it smooth and shiny and soft. And that’s not even counting if I’m shaving – then there’s soap and razors. Maybe baby oil to rub over my skin afterwards.

Makeup. The day’s makeup. I went literally years without a touch of it on my face and now I’m wearing it almost every day because I feel beautiful with it on. My new piercings. 6 total in the last ten weeks because they make me feel pretty with more planned.

I’ve purchased jewelry that I’m actually wearing. I signed up for Ipsy. I bought nail polish twice in recent weeks and I’ve done my nails 3 times in the last week. My hair is currently in curling rods in the hopes of having fabulous cascading curls tomorrow when I wake up.

My next body mod will be a small tattoo that will be a reminder that I have value and I am worthy of so many things – love, good health, friendship, family, good things in my life. This is a thing I have a problem with and I often forget but I’m working on it with my therapist and all these things above are signs of progress. I feel good about myself for the first time in at least 6 years. I feel WORTHY of self – care for the first time in longer than I can remember.

Depression is a mother fucking bitch. You lose track of what’s important (yourself) and you stop believing in your WORTH. Even with medication, my environment was still a big determiner of how I felt about myself. Getting away from my ex was the best thing I could have done for myself and I only regret not doing it sooner.

General · Health

I’m Okay

Things have cooled off and I feel like I’m in a much better place emotionally/mentally. I feel calmer, more in control, and less… well, crazy. This is good. I’m okay.

I’ve managed to sell a few more things, including some yarn and some books, and hope to sell more over the next few weeks. I have my car registration coming up in October, and I need to get Yuba neutered, which is going to cost me another hundred bucks or so. Money I don’t typically have just laying around. I also want to get some more piercings, which will cost money too.

Right now, my extra expenses over the next few months are basically $96 car registration, $100 Yuba’s neutering, and whatever it will cost for my next piercings. I’d like a few rings put through my outer labia, a second set of holes in my earlobes, and I kinda want my belly button done but I’m not sure if that can happen because of the scarring I have from two surgeries through my navel. There’s also Bark at the Park in October that I want to take Yuba to, and I would like to have about $30 of spending money for that as well.

I’m working on housebreaking Yuba, which was going really well, but then we got down to one other puppy, and when he was brought inside, everything went to shit. Tonight I’ve got them both in my room and they will both go in the crate tonight and hopefully there won’t be any messes to clean up because in theory they will tell me when they need to go out in the morning and I will rush them outside and treat them for going potty like good puppies.

I don’t really have much else going on right now. Its mostly puppies and puppies and more puppies, and getting holes punched in me. I can’t remember if I posted about it, but a month after I got my nips done, I went back and got a VCH and my septum done too.

Oh! And I finally got the spare room set up as my craft room, so that’s good. I just haven’t done any work in there yet. I started to one day, but it didn’t happen.