Let’s Keep It Going!

I did some Googling and the black tetras are black Neon tetras. They’re pretty flashy for not having bright colors, which means I can really enjoy them without Lola feeling threatened by them.

Since my tank is mostly stocked now I went ahead and ordered some stuff for the boys. A new bed for Tejony, toys, treats, and a can of freeze dried brine shrimp for the fishes.

I have another bag nearly filled with donations and I’m hoping to finish filling it plus a second bag over the weekend. I’d also like to get some crafting done today but I dunno about that… Lol.

Fishy Frenzy, Destashing, & Back to School

I ended up with a 29 gallon instead of a 20 long- same footprint but a bit taller. Lola still hates the guppies but not as aggressively now that there’s a lot more space. I did lose one (never did see the body) but the other two are doing well. I’ve also added 8 zebra danios and 6 black tetras. There’s also a black mystery snail and a gold inca snail. I’ve added more plants too which I hope take off and grow like mad. I might add a bristlenose pleco if I can find one but that should be about it.

I destashed and donated 4 bags of craft supplies, finished crafts, and books, plus the two small acrylic tanks and all their accessories. That let me free up quite a bit of space so I could clean up a bit more. I have a few boxes to break down and take out still, plus a comic book box that housed sewing patterns that I can unfold and store in the closet.

Last week on the 5th I started class. BIOSCI100. Its mostly review for me so far but its fun. Not too challenging but we’ll see how I do on the first exam. I still need to find a partner for the presentation we have to give and choose a topic. I have a few ideas but gotta find a partner first.

Getting Shit Done

I woke up today starving but I couldn’t eat because I needed to go do fasting blood work for labs at my new Dr’s. I’m thinking okay, go in, a quick stick, and I can eat, do whatever else, and go home.

I had to wait over an hour before they called me in. Then I see they don’t have a dedicated person to draw blood. This won’t be good. I tell her I’m a hard stick, my veins are tiny, deep, and they hide.

She sticks me in the crook of my left elbow after I tell her that’s my good arm. No blood. She sticks me in the middle of my left forearm. No blood.

She questions if she should try again. I tell her I didn’t starve for nothing and I’m not leaving until she gets her samples.

She looks at my right arm, and spies a vein in my right hand. She sticks it…. And blood drips one drop at a time into the tube.

Ten minutes later, she has less than an inch of blood in each of three tubes. She hands me a cup to pee in. I had to the bathroom, pee in the cup, and apologize for being a hard stick. She apologizes for sticking me three times… Lol.

I had to McDonald’s to grab something to eat. Had over to Michael’s to get the floss colors I still need for my project. Bought washi tape I didn’t realize I already had.

Went to Walmart and bought a 6″ box to ship stuff in. Should have gotten 2 of them but I didn’t realize other stuff that won’t fit in padded mailers was going to sell today after I got home.

Went to Petsmart. After much deliberation I chose three male guppies which I intended to put in my vacant 5.5 gallon tank.

Got home with the guppies. Floated them on the tank. Water starts pooling around the tank. It’s not overflow. Shit. Tank is leaking. Bail water into the sink until tank is half empty. Carry tank to the bathroom and sit it in the bathtub.

Float bag with guppies in Lola’s tank. Lola is angry about the intruders. When I release the guppies into the tank, she starts hunting them.

If she’s not settled down by tomorrow, I’ll be picking up a 20 long to set up to replace all 3 small tanks and create a new space with no established territories.

I told Lola to stop being so angry but she’s not listening.

New Ink Friday!

I wish this was a regular thing! Haha but no…. Just a I got lucky enough to save up some $$$ to get some work done.

Several months back, I had this guy, from wall flash, tattooed on my thigh.

And after sending over my ideas and some inspiration images to my artist, which included photos of an enamel pin, a watercolor painting, and a piece of polymer clay sculpture, he came up with this.

There will be some other small details added around it before it’s done.

Anyway, I was having pre-tattoo anxiety last night so I was up late, and then woke up super early with pre-tattoo excitement this morning. I pottered around the house, watched some Nurse Jackie, gave Moppie her meds, and ate a good breakfast. Then I hopped in the car to head into town.

Crown and Dagger Tattoo and my bank are on the same block, so I found street parking, walked to the ATM, got cash, and sat on a bench to wait for the shop to open. I was wearing shorts for easy access to my thigh. The bench was metal, and very cold. I did not stay sitting long.

Finally I went in and Charlie got to work getting my stencil ready, and then he applied it. He busted out a sharpie to make a few minor edits directly on my thigh. Then we got started.

About 2 hours after I had arrived, I had this.

I’ll be going back in the next couple months for one final session, but I love how he got was I was imagining just right!

Y’all The Stupid Hurts

I was browsing Twitter and saw some comments regarding the Tangerine Shitgibbon’s comments on the horrible, scary, destructive fires ravaging California. Basically, the Forestry department is at fault here because they abused their funding, and failed to take up all the pine needles.

It makes my head spin that this idjit was elected to run our country. He’s of low intelligence, is incredibly inelegant, crass, rude, and completely clueless about the things people actually care about.

I watched the results roll in over the night of the last election and while Team Blue didn’t sweep evening away, we did okay. We lost the Senate but got a pretty solid grip on the House.

Do I expect to see amazing changes? No. But I do expect to see them fighting back against Team Red and helping us win a lot of small victories which will add up.

And more then that, I’m hoping that people will see even with this year’s iffy voter turnout, we can effect change, and the next election will have an even better turnout which will hopefully win us the Senate too.

The “Grand Old Party” might be been the right thing way back when, but we’re well beyond the dark ages of human rights. We can and should do better. We all deserve that.

I Voted (& I hope you did too)

Tonight my mom and I drove to our polling place, with plans for me to vote. I convinced her to vote too because she was already there, and at the last minute, she did.

I’m glad she did because people like me and my mom and my friends need to take back the country from Trump and his lackeys. The United States isn’t feeling very safe with him in charge, and I worry for my person of color, my female, my queer friends.

We all need to be part of the solution. Because remember, if you’re not part of the solution, you’re part of the problem!

Project Get My Shit Together

I met with my Department of Rehab counselor today and we spent a little over an hour working up my plan to become a medical lab technician or maybe a medical laboratory scientist. I could be a legit actual scientist!

Basically, it looks like this :

  • Complete perquisites at CoC
  • Meet program requirements (things like health testing, malpractice insurance)
  • Complete degree
  • Sit for state licensing exam
  • Find employment
  • Continue to support me thru first 3 months of employment

They’ll be paying for everything, even my transportation fees, which is pretty amazing.

Tonight I applied for admission at College of the Canyons and also applied for FAFSA.

In two weeks I’ll be attending orientation for the program, and hopefully I’ll have all my questions in order by them.

One of those questions is if I take the Phlebotomy elective within the program, does this get me my phlebotomy cert, which is a requirement for admission into the program. If it doesn’t, will I be better off getting my cert thru AV Adult School instead?

There’s a lot to think about but taking everything one step at a time will ensure everything is done right.

Scary Adult Stuff

I did a brave but scary thing this evening.

One of the first people my ex introduced me to while we were together was this guy who physically is totally my type. Turns out he’s really nice, an actual good guy.

We’d see each other at parties and friends house over the next 9 and a half years. He would flirt with me after he had a few drinks, but I never saw him flirt with anyone else. Multiple times we went out in a group and I watched beautiful women try really hard to get his attention and he would never notice.

Fast forward 8 years. My ex and I have split up, and I’m chatting with him online fairly often. Still running into each other socially, at parties, whatever. I like him. A lot. Tried being subtle. Tried being obvious. No idea how he feels except I’m fairly sure he’s attracted to me.

Tonight I sent him a message that said:

“Okay…. So like potentially awkward message time.

I have no idea if you’re seeing anyone, but I’m interested in you, and I don’t know if you’re uninterested or just oblivious. I’ve found you to be attractive since we first met.

I would like to get to know you better and possibly see you romantically. Getting straight to the point here… Lol.

If you’re not interested, that’s okay too. But it’s up to you now. I haven’t got a goddamn clue how this whole dating thing even works.

I hope you’re having a good evening!“

Then I proceeded to panic because I’m a 12 year old girl.

Anyway, long story slightly shorter, he responded, he likes me a lot, but he’s trying to work on some personal issues before seriously dating anyone. This feels legit because his last relationship was a big mess and he’s a very honest person.

He also said he wasn’t missing all my signals, he’s just not good at expressing things sometimes so he’s glad I took the direct route so we could talk about it.

So yeah. I took a risk, did not go up in flames, and maybe it’ll work out to our liking in the future. I don’t think he’s really kinky but he is very open minded and has a curious nature.

I’m sitting here now with some minor fallout from my earlier panic but I know things will be okay, whatever happens.

What Should I Do With Myself?

People of the Internet! The Department of Rehabilitation is willing to pay to send me back to school. But I’m having trouble deciding what I would like to go to school for/a career end goal.

I’m editing this post because I’ve been researching, reading, and thinking, and I think what I really want is a career that challenges me regularly, and let’s me actually help people.

Every job I’ve held in the past I’ve ended up hating because it just seemed so pointless and meaningless in the grand scheme of things, so I think helping others might be what I really should be doing.

  1. Aerospace. We have a strong aerospace presence here locally and there’s a program here that employers in that field often hand pick from. I enjoy working with my hands, and it’s a practical choice.
  2. Psychology. Brains are crazy interesting as are minds and my mental illness makes this even more interesting to me. I’m just not 100% sure I want to work as a medical care giver. Possibly work as a researcher.
  3. Biology. I’m considering Medical Lab Technician or maybe Veterinary Technician in the Biology area. There’s also Physician’s Assistant as well.
  4. Mortuary Sciences. I’m waiting to hear back from the head of this program at Cypress, as their list is requirements make their program a little iffy for me. They required proof of good mental health and I’m not sure how they determine this.

The good thing is I have a lot of general ed classes already completed and some coursework that might carry over for some of these ideas’ core courses. I honestly wouldn’t need a lot of coursework at the Associate’s level so it seems like no big deal to go one further, you know?

Not to brag, but I’m smart. I’m a really good learner. And after 30 hours of testing in just about everything, DOR basically told me I have an incredibly exceptional mind and I could be placed anywhere…. Which isn’t really helpful. “Yo kid, the sky’s the limit! Let’s not help narrow things down or anything!”

I’m sitting here now trying to come up with some genuinely interesting areas to look into before I meet with my counselor at the end of the month.

When I wake up tomorrow I’m going to try to get an appointment with a counselor at the college and see if they can help me narrow things down. I’m trying to be proactive but it’s hard when I’ve been so passive all my life.

My Midlife Non-Crisis

In the last year, I’ve significantly altered my appearance. A couple new tattoos, and quite a few piercings, most of which are visible to the public eye.

I did a year of therapy, I found value in myself for probably the first time ever, and I started working on making my life better for me.

On Wednesday, I met with a paralegal to file a petition to have my misdemeanor expunged from my record because I want to try to get a job in aerospace. I have to wait 12 weeks to find out if the judge approved it.

Right now my life is all about finding the things that make me happy, and finally trying the things I’ve always wanted to do.

I spent the last couple days reading and asking questions, and early next year I hope to get my motorcycle license.

I plan on taking the safety course put on by the CHP and getting my license that way. It’ll give me a crash course in how to ride, ride safely, and will hopefully give me enough of an idea whether I want a bike or a scooter.

Right now I’m leaning more towards a bike, but with either one I think I want something in the 300 to 450 cc displacement range.

Of course this all ties in with paying off debt. At the end of this year, I should be able to pay off my Affirm account and close it.

That will free up $150 a month, and I plan to channel about half of that into extra payments on my smaller credit card balance. The smaller credit card should be about paid off by next December. At that point I should be able to refinance my loan with my bank to include my last remaining card, and hopefully be able to take the money I saved and put a solid down payment on a used bike or scooter and finance the rest.