Y’all The Stupid Hurts

I was browsing Twitter and saw some comments regarding the Tangerine Shitgibbon’s comments on the horrible, scary, destructive fires ravaging California. Basically, the Forestry department is at fault here because they abused their funding, and failed to take up all the pine needles.

It makes my head spin that this idjit was elected to run our country. He’s of low intelligence, is incredibly inelegant, crass, rude, and completely clueless about the things people actually care about.

I watched the results roll in over the night of the last election and while Team Blue didn’t sweep evening away, we did okay. We lost the Senate but got a pretty solid grip on the House.

Do I expect to see amazing changes? No. But I do expect to see them fighting back against Team Red and helping us win a lot of small victories which will add up.

And more then that, I’m hoping that people will see even with this year’s iffy voter turnout, we can effect change, and the next election will have an even better turnout which will hopefully win us the Senate too.

The “Grand Old Party” might be been the right thing way back when, but we’re well beyond the dark ages of human rights. We can and should do better. We all deserve that.

I Voted (& I hope you did too)

Tonight my mom and I drove to our polling place, with plans for me to vote. I convinced her to vote too because she was already there, and at the last minute, she did.

I’m glad she did because people like me and my mom and my friends need to take back the country from Trump and his lackeys. The United States isn’t feeling very safe with him in charge, and I worry for my person of color, my female, my queer friends.

We all need to be part of the solution. Because remember, if you’re not part of the solution, you’re part of the problem!

Project Get My Shit Together

I met with my Department of Rehab counselor today and we spent a little over an hour working up my plan to become a medical lab technician or maybe a medical laboratory scientist. I could be a legit actual scientist!

Basically, it looks like this :

  • Complete perquisites at CoC
  • Meet program requirements (things like health testing, malpractice insurance)
  • Complete degree
  • Sit for state licensing exam
  • Find employment
  • Continue to support me thru first 3 months of employment

They’ll be paying for everything, even my transportation fees, which is pretty amazing.

Tonight I applied for admission at College of the Canyons and also applied for FAFSA.

In two weeks I’ll be attending orientation for the program, and hopefully I’ll have all my questions in order by them.

One of those questions is if I take the Phlebotomy elective within the program, does this get me my phlebotomy cert, which is a requirement for admission into the program. If it doesn’t, will I be better off getting my cert thru AV Adult School instead?

There’s a lot to think about but taking everything one step at a time will ensure everything is done right.

Scary Adult Stuff

I did a brave but scary thing this evening.

One of the first people my ex introduced me to while we were together was this guy who physically is totally my type. Turns out he’s really nice, an actual good guy.

We’d see each other at parties and friends house over the next 9 and a half years. He would flirt with me after he had a few drinks, but I never saw him flirt with anyone else. Multiple times we went out in a group and I watched beautiful women try really hard to get his attention and he would never notice.

Fast forward 8 years. My ex and I have split up, and I’m chatting with him online fairly often. Still running into each other socially, at parties, whatever. I like him. A lot. Tried being subtle. Tried being obvious. No idea how he feels except I’m fairly sure he’s attracted to me.

Tonight I sent him a message that said:

“Okay…. So like potentially awkward message time.

I have no idea if you’re seeing anyone, but I’m interested in you, and I don’t know if you’re uninterested or just oblivious. I’ve found you to be attractive since we first met.

I would like to get to know you better and possibly see you romantically. Getting straight to the point here… Lol.

If you’re not interested, that’s okay too. But it’s up to you now. I haven’t got a goddamn clue how this whole dating thing even works.

I hope you’re having a good evening!“

Then I proceeded to panic because I’m a 12 year old girl.

Anyway, long story slightly shorter, he responded, he likes me a lot, but he’s trying to work on some personal issues before seriously dating anyone. This feels legit because his last relationship was a big mess and he’s a very honest person.

He also said he wasn’t missing all my signals, he’s just not good at expressing things sometimes so he’s glad I took the direct route so we could talk about it.

So yeah. I took a risk, did not go up in flames, and maybe it’ll work out to our liking in the future. I don’t think he’s really kinky but he is very open minded and has a curious nature.

I’m sitting here now with some minor fallout from my earlier panic but I know things will be okay, whatever happens.

What Should I Do With Myself?

People of the Internet! The Department of Rehabilitation is willing to pay to send me back to school. But I’m having trouble deciding what I would like to go to school for/a career end goal.

I’m editing this post because I’ve been researching, reading, and thinking, and I think what I really want is a career that challenges me regularly, and let’s me actually help people.

Every job I’ve held in the past I’ve ended up hating because it just seemed so pointless and meaningless in the grand scheme of things, so I think helping others might be what I really should be doing.

  1. Aerospace. We have a strong aerospace presence here locally and there’s a program here that employers in that field often hand pick from. I enjoy working with my hands, and it’s a practical choice.
  2. Psychology. Brains are crazy interesting as are minds and my mental illness makes this even more interesting to me. I’m just not 100% sure I want to work as a medical care giver. Possibly work as a researcher.
  3. Biology. I’m considering Medical Lab Technician or maybe Veterinary Technician in the Biology area. There’s also Physician’s Assistant as well.
  4. Mortuary Sciences. I’m waiting to hear back from the head of this program at Cypress, as their list is requirements make their program a little iffy for me. They required proof of good mental health and I’m not sure how they determine this.

The good thing is I have a lot of general ed classes already completed and some coursework that might carry over for some of these ideas’ core courses. I honestly wouldn’t need a lot of coursework at the Associate’s level so it seems like no big deal to go one further, you know?

Not to brag, but I’m smart. I’m a really good learner. And after 30 hours of testing in just about everything, DOR basically told me I have an incredibly exceptional mind and I could be placed anywhere…. Which isn’t really helpful. “Yo kid, the sky’s the limit! Let’s not help narrow things down or anything!”

I’m sitting here now trying to come up with some genuinely interesting areas to look into before I meet with my counselor at the end of the month.

When I wake up tomorrow I’m going to try to get an appointment with a counselor at the college and see if they can help me narrow things down. I’m trying to be proactive but it’s hard when I’ve been so passive all my life.

My Midlife Non-Crisis

In the last year, I’ve significantly altered my appearance. A couple new tattoos, and quite a few piercings, most of which are visible to the public eye.

I did a year of therapy, I found value in myself for probably the first time ever, and I started working on making my life better for me.

On Wednesday, I met with a paralegal to file a petition to have my misdemeanor expunged from my record because I want to try to get a job in aerospace. I have to wait 12 weeks to find out if the judge approved it.

Right now my life is all about finding the things that make me happy, and finally trying the things I’ve always wanted to do.

I spent the last couple days reading and asking questions, and early next year I hope to get my motorcycle license.

I plan on taking the safety course put on by the CHP and getting my license that way. It’ll give me a crash course in how to ride, ride safely, and will hopefully give me enough of an idea whether I want a bike or a scooter.

Right now I’m leaning more towards a bike, but with either one I think I want something in the 300 to 450 cc displacement range.

Of course this all ties in with paying off debt. At the end of this year, I should be able to pay off my Affirm account and close it.

That will free up $150 a month, and I plan to channel about half of that into extra payments on my smaller credit card balance. The smaller credit card should be about paid off by next December. At that point I should be able to refinance my loan with my bank to include my last remaining card, and hopefully be able to take the money I saved and put a solid down payment on a used bike or scooter and finance the rest.

Tejony Update

Tejony’s wound is mostly healing well. There’s a spot in the middle though that won’t close up, and it’s still oozing a lot of fluid. The fluid is mostly clear, sometimes times 3 with a little blood, and has no odor. But after 2 weeks it shouldn’t still be draining, so he’s on a second course of antibiotics.

I’m hoping it’ll stop draining and start closing up in the center by the time he sees the vet again this weekend but I dunno.

Other than that though, he’s eating, drinking, wants to run and play, and is basically his normal sweet self.

Fuck you, Facebook!

I have had my Facebook account deactivated for all but about 3 months of the last two years. I hate it. It’s too intrusive and I finally decided to delete it.

I made a non-facebook affiliated messenger account, which was fine until I tried to sign in to a second device. I then got a message that my account was permanently banned. I couldn’t make a new account with the same phone number either. I only have one cell phone number.

At that point I had to grab my old account I wanted to delete to all talk to my friends. Ugh.

I set about deleting all personal info from my Facebook profile – changed my name, deleted thousands of photos and tags.

Then I find out that on a computer, or thru the android app, or through my phone browser, I can’t delete any photos that used to be profile pictures. And I can no longer deactivate my account. The option just isn’t there.

I ended up making a new account under an assumed name on Facebook, putting no personal info in it, locking down all the privacy as much as possible, adding the people I want to talk to on messenger, and deleting the Facebook app. No friend requests will be accepted on Facebook and I won’t be joining or liking anything to remain as incognito as possible.

Its super frustrating that once Facebook gets its claws into you, it does not want to ever let go. Grrr!

Poor Tejony

Tonight Tejony was out back, chasing rabbits. He was having a great time. It’s one of his favorite activities.

Then he ran full tilt into one of these.

This resulted in an 8″ gash behind his front leg through all the skin and down to the muscle. I could have put both my hands through it.

Obviously his next action was to get loaded into the backseat of my mom’s truck and off to the emergency vet. He was there until almost midnight, but they got him patched up with a lot of stitches, iv fluids, and meds.

When he got home, my mom and I helped him onto my bed and I put a shirt on him.

I’m pretty sure my mom will be taking tomorrow off work, and I be trying to sleep while kinda keeping an eye on my poor boy.

It was a total freak accident. Nobody would have seen this coming. A literal almost thousand dollar accident. Ugh.

Busy Busy Tuesday

I had a really busy day Tuesday. The pups woke me up at 6am,so I got a whole 4 hours of sleep. Not a great start, but I saw my check came in, so I paid mom rent, and headed into town at 830 to get to the bank when it opened. I withdrew most of the remaining money, deposited about 2/3rds into my other account, and picked up my prescriptions. Amazingly they were actually ready so there was no wait.

From there I dropped off a couple bags of donations at Goodwill.

I paid all my bills, except the phone bills which I had cash for, and drove over to Verizon to find out they don’t open until 11am. Decided to drive over to the hospital and see about donating blood because that usually takes a while. I filled out the paperwork and the lady stuck me, and ten minutes later I was drinking my juice.

I grabbed a chicken sandwich at McDonald’s after that and drank lots of water. Then I went over to Verizon and paid my bills. I’m pretty sure the manager there was flirting with me. He was cute too. I went and put gas in the car next.

I went by Your Favorite Tattoo next because I wanted to ask a question about pricing on a piece of flash I saw when I was in there getting pierced last month. Found out it was affordable, and then this happened.

He’s on the front of my upper thigh and about the size of a deck of cards.

I was tattooed by Charlie G., who also happens to be an apprentice but he’s got a great light hand and his lines and shading are top notch.

I contacted him about adding some other characters to it over the next six months so I’m hoping he says yes. 🙂

After leaving Your Favorite Tattoo, I did some grocery shopping and went home.