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Little Things

I finished my exam, which didn’t take long. I’ll be driving in to turn it in this evening. I know I’m getting a good grade but I’m still curious about my other grades in the class and whether or not I might get a B. A B would make me so happy.

I purchased and ordered yarn for my first sweater. The pattern seems to be more recipe than pattern, so I should be able to easily make a few minor changes. It’s basically a tube (it’s of the shoulder) with a cable across the chest.

I feel so much better in the days since dropping the friend I wrote about before. I’m just so much less stressed and I’m not worrying about making sure they’re okay 24/7. I was basically babysitting them all day while they bitched about how horrible everyone treated them. At first I felt bad because it seems like they actually need a lot of help but I just couldn’t deal with them constantly playing the victim about every little detail in their life. It’s definitely better without them. I can get things done now.

The kittens are growing like crazy and while the dogs are outside during the day the kittens have the run of the house. They’re basically complete little Psychopaths running around, jumping off of things, wrestling, climbing, getting tripped over, and doing all things cat. The littlest one, he’s so cute, has been a little behind the curve in learning to do all things cat. But he’s slowly catching up, wrestling with his brother and sister, and starting to climb and explore. I’ll be sad when they all go outside to become barn cats like we intended from the beginning.

My doggos turned 2 years old on the 25th. It’s hard to believe they’re no longer puppies at all, considering they constantly act like puppies, racing around, playing, fighting, Wrestling, doing all the things that puppies do, pretty much 24/7 unless they’re sleeping or eating. I felt like a really bad dog mom because I totally forgot to wish them happy birthday and I didn’t even give them extra treats that day! The horror of it!

I got a really cool backpack to tote around my stuff for school in the coming semesters. It was a little pricey but honestly good backpacks have always been a little pricey. I remember when I was in high school a JanSport would cost about $45 and that was in the mid-to-late 90s. I especially like the one I got because it has a special pocket that’s padded to hold a laptop, a smaller padded pocket for a tablet, it’s got pockets for water bottles, and as large as enough to hold a couple of binders or books. It’s also my favorite color.

It’s currently 1:30 in the morning and I’m awake because after only getting 5 hours sleep yesterday, I went to bed at 10 p.m. last night only to wake up at 1 a.m. hot, headachy, and having to pee really bad. I went pee, and I’ve cooled down, but I still have the headache. Will likely take some ibuprofen in a little bit. There will definitely be an app in order this afternoon!

A Small Rant

Months ago, I took out a couple microloans with Affirm. No big deal except I’m bad with using credit in any form responsibly, and even though they don’t charge late fees, they’ve made it really hard to get rid of them.

They won’t allow me close my account or put a block on taking out new loans, until all my existing ones are paid in full. And because I live check to check, it’s hard to make the payments and still squeeze by. I understand this was my bad planning but it’s frustrating.

Right now my credit is taking a ding because I’m snowballing the loans. Paying off the smallest and on up. This means the other loans are delinquent until I get to them, but it also means they won’t let me open new ones, so it’s kind of a win.

But ugh!

Fucking Why?

I was reviewing financial aid on AVC’s website and it said I had an award of $644 per semester for 4 years. I was super excited and was planning to use part of it to take some Spanish classes.

But after looking into it more, there’s a host of reasons I won’t be receiving it that I can’t do anything about unless I lie my ass off about my intentions for my education.

It’s so fucking frustrating that education is so damned expensive in the United States. We can all benefit so much from it but most of us can’t get it.

Then I discovered that AVC offers payment plans for class fees… But they require a $25 fee plus interest, which brings my $250 class up to about $300 not counting books. That’s not an option either.

I checked with the adult school and they offer ESL but not Spanish courses.

The last thing I can think of is to look for private lessons, and see what’s affordable relative to a semi-regular meet-up…

And can I add onto this to make my financial situation a little uglier? My laptop died and I needed to replace it. I didn’t order what I really wanted, but I ordered what would do what I need it to at a minimum of expense.

The good thing about a new laptop, is I’ll hopefully have a good little machine that I can design all sorts of great new patterns on, and maybe I’ll go back to doing some minor graphic design.

I’ve noticed when I add a new item to my etsy shop, I usually get a few small sales over the next week. Maybe adding a new item once a week is the way to go?

Happy Houseplants

After almost two years of successfully growing some low light aquatic plants, I decided a few months ago to try my hand at some houseplants.

A year ago I had a peace lily, which I promptly killed. Around the same time I stick some avocado seeds in water (the toothpick method) and eventually sprouted two of them.

A few months ago, I planted the avocados in soil, and one has done really well with some beautiful leaves. The other is still just a stem but it looks like a healthy stem.

There’s a 3rd seed in there I just stuck directly into the dirt. Maybe it’ll sprout, maybe not.

Around the same time, I ordered a monstera deliciosa online and it was shipped to me a medium priority mail box. It’s been putting out new leaves like crazy and in the last 6 weeks has more than doubled in size.

After that, I bought this tiny little arrow leaf vine, which was the only healthy looking plant at Walmart. It’s also doubled in size and is thriving.

After that I ordered two parlor palms which whole they aren’t getting tons of new growth, seem really happy as long as they’re pretty wet. I did drain off the extra water after I took this pic – I don’t leave them sitting in a lake! Lol

I also bought a spider plant, which is not doing well, and I have some pothos cuttings that I’m trying to get to root.

Friendships

I made the decision to end a friendship last night. I had a friend, whom I’ve known for about 4 years. In this time, this person has constantly overreacted, accused literally everyone who they interact with of constantly attacking them if they don’t tell them what they want to hear, and doing their damnedest to remain a victim in relation to virtually everything. People have offered to help them, and there’s always an excuse why they can’t do it.

The dumb memes saying you don’t need that kind of negativity in your life? That’s what it came down to. This person is addicted to drama, trauma, and negativity and while I wish them the best, I just can’t keep walking around on eggshells afraid they’re going to bite my face off over any comment I make.

It’s been getting more and more stressful to interact with them and it’s taking a toll on my mental health to continue trying to safeguard theirs when all I get back is being told I’m unhelpful, triggering, telling them what to do, and apparently recently I’ve started making fun of their disabilities. I can’t even begin to make sense or if the way they think. As a person with my own disability, I would never belittle or laugh at someone because of theirs.

Anyway… My evenings will be quieter now and I’ll find something else to fill them. Maybe I’ll actually get some crafting done now instead of trying to babysit them while they blame everyone else for all their problems.