Almost Through It

I’m one week away from being done with my first class towards meeting the perquisites for the MLT program. BIOSCI100, which when I signed up, I thought was going to be stupidly easy, has not been. It’s been challenging and I’ve worked hard for every point I’ve accumulated.

We’ve had two exams in the lecture portion, both of which I failed, but I got an A on the first exam in the lab and I’m pretty confident I got a B on the lab final that we took today.

I’m assuming our lab workbook will score highly, based on what I saw of my group’s work in the portion that I put together.

Last Sunday my mom and I went to the Wildlife Learning Center in Sylmar so I could do the extra credit assignment. Unfortunately it was raining and most of the animals were hiding in their shelters. I do think I did a good job of the write-up though and I asked questions if the people working there to get more information.

The birds really seemed to enjoy the rain but the mammals were all tucked away, cozy and warm.

Next Thursday we have the lecture final and if my predictions about the scores on the things we turned in today are right, I need a 65% on it to maintain my C.

This weekend I’ll be going over the topics on the final and working on my notes. He allows a page, front and back, to use on the exam, and I need to make it count.

I would love to get a B in the class but I don’t think it’s realistic to expect that.

Happy Houseplants

After almost two years of successfully growing some low light aquatic plants, I decided a few months ago to try my hand at some houseplants.

A year ago I had a peace lily, which I promptly killed. Around the same time I stick some avocado seeds in water (the toothpick method) and eventually sprouted two of them.

A few months ago, I planted the avocados in soil, and one has done really well with some beautiful leaves. The other is still just a stem but it looks like a healthy stem.

There’s a 3rd seed in there I just stuck directly into the dirt. Maybe it’ll sprout, maybe not.

Around the same time, I ordered a monstera deliciosa online and it was shipped to me a medium priority mail box. It’s been putting out new leaves like crazy and in the last 6 weeks has more than doubled in size.

After that, I bought this tiny little arrow leaf vine, which was the only healthy looking plant at Walmart. It’s also doubled in size and is thriving.

After that I ordered two parlor palms which whole they aren’t getting tons of new growth, seem really happy as long as they’re pretty wet. I did drain off the extra water after I took this pic – I don’t leave them sitting in a lake! Lol

I also bought a spider plant, which is not doing well, and I have some pothos cuttings that I’m trying to get to root.

Friendships

I made the decision to end a friendship last night. I had a friend, whom I’ve known for about 4 years. In this time, this person has constantly overreacted, accused literally everyone who they interact with of constantly attacking them if they don’t tell them what they want to hear, and doing their damnedest to remain a victim in relation to virtually everything. People have offered to help them, and there’s always an excuse why they can’t do it.

The dumb memes saying you don’t need that kind of negativity in your life? That’s what it came down to. This person is addicted to drama, trauma, and negativity and while I wish them the best, I just can’t keep walking around on eggshells afraid they’re going to bite my face off over any comment I make.

It’s been getting more and more stressful to interact with them and it’s taking a toll on my mental health to continue trying to safeguard theirs when all I get back is being told I’m unhelpful, triggering, telling them what to do, and apparently recently I’ve started making fun of their disabilities. I can’t even begin to make sense or if the way they think. As a person with my own disability, I would never belittle or laugh at someone because of theirs.

Anyway… My evenings will be quieter now and I’ll find something else to fill them. Maybe I’ll actually get some crafting done now instead of trying to babysit them while they blame everyone else for all their problems.

Weight Watchers & Points vs Calories

I’m trying to trust the process but I also have a big question. Here we go.

My issues have always been with portion control. I’m good at eating mostly healthy foods. I don’t eat much bread, rice, pasta, heavy carbs in general. If I don’t eat sweets, I don’t crave them. I drink 85% plain water, and a lot of it at that.

So even though I’m only one week in, I’m finding its super easy to have eaten 2000 calories of healthy food in a day but only spending 15 or 20 of my 39 daily points.

I looked up my BMR (basil metabolic rate) and according to the internet, I need about 2600 calories a day to maintain my current weight (310lbs).

So where do I draw the line, so to speak? Eating all my daily points seems like an excess of food. I’m not going hungry. But it just seems like the free foods make this too lenient. I feel like I’m cheating their system without even trying. The old system has a clear relationship between points and calories but with this system, the relationship is very unclear.

Today was more in line with what they want (I got the blue dot). But I also decided to track in a second app that counts calories at the same time.

I feel like I have literally been eating all day today. I haven’t, but I mean I had mostly healthy foods plus a little junk. That junk is the only reason I got my blue dot today.

I’m going to track in both apps for the 3 months I agreed to commit to WW and see where things are at that point.

Eta…. Basically I’m seeing that if you don’t eat a lot of junk food or carb-dense foods, you’re going to cheat the program just by eating generally healthy foods. And we all know cheating the program doesn’t work.

I posted this query in a few places and I caught a lot of flack from WW fans who oddly enough mostly agreed that 1) the plan is always right, and 2) put need to track calories in order to succeed.

Tomorrow I’ll be calling to see what it will cost me to cancel my subscription. The biggest selling point of Weight Watchers has been that you could still eat the foods you love, but apparently that’s not true.

Shopping!

Last week I bought a few things at the grocery store I wanted to try. Things that I want sure how they would fit into Weight Watchers. But they did fit in and I did like them, so today I went back to the store to really shop.

I tried to follow the whole “shop the perimeter” rule but some things I do buy canned. I spent $95 on 54 food items.

  • Cottage cheese (3 cups x 4) $7.92
  • Plain yogurt (3 cups x 1) $2.16
  • Italian seasoned chicken breasts (2 bags) $12.78
  • Chicken breast tenderloins (1 bag). $7.80
  • Ground turkey (3 lbs) $9.18
  • Salmon burgers (2 lbs) $10.96
  • Southwest style beans (6 cans) $5.88
  • Alfredo sauce (1 jar) $1.97
  • Sardines (15 tins) $13.65
  • White vinegar $0.94
  • Mackerel (2 cans) $3.70
  • Diced tomatoes (2 cans) $1.96
  • Oranges (8 lbs) $3.98
  • Grapes (2 lbs) $2.59
  • Carrots (1 lbs) $0.78
  • Mushrooms $1.98
  • Onions (2 lbs) $1.87
  • Pineapple $1.98
  • Green cabbage $1.40
  • Asparagus $1.42

I already have things like canned tuna, Mac n cheese, shrimp, rice, pasta…. So I should be able to make some good stuff plus have yummy snacks!