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Holes, Puppies, & Dates!

So my last post was about a month ago when I got my nipples pierced. I’m happy to say they are healing up nicely and I was so pleased with how not OMG awful the experience was, that this last Tuesday, I went back to the piercer and got my septum and VCH done.

Yeah, I went with the little pink rhinestone clicker, and I ordered another one with a big(ish) bright pink simulated opal on it.

No photo of the VCH, but I can assure you it looks super cute!

Wednesday I met with my therapist and she asked if I would like to meet more often- weekly instead of monthly. I said yes because I feel like I really benefit from seeing her.

After that, I took myself on a solo lunch date to my favorite Mexican place, my first time going there without Mattie. The waiter asked if he should say he’s sorry or congratulate me on my break-up- I said congratulate me. I had a really nice meal, and I got to eat as many of the chips and salsa as I wanted. πŸ™‚

I don’t think I mentioned my mom’s dog had a little of puppies 5 weeks ago. The puppies are 3/4 German Shepherd and 1/4 Belgian Malinois. I’ve spent the last 2 weeks telling myself I do not need a puppy. There are 9 of them.

Anyway, this guy!

This is Yuba, and he’s mine. He’s got a pretty blue collar on, and I’ve ordered him a tag with his name and my phone number and I’m so excited. I’m gonna have a dog again! He’s the lightest colored pup in the litter, and he’s the smallest boy, and so far the calmest. His mama is overly cautious and not terribly friendly, and the father is not any better. I’m planning to leave him with his siblings for a few more weeks and then start crate training. Once his puppy shots are finished, he’ll start going places with me to gain more socialization and hopefully more confidence.

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Things

I’m not really angry anymore, but I am contemplating unfriending Mattie on Facebook, and his mom too. My curiosity got the better of me, and I went trolling back to his posts when he announced our breakup. There was rather a lot of shit talking, which amounted to me being a crazy bitch, a terrible cook (his mother agreed on this even though she’s never eaten my cooking?), and there were comments about how at least I wouldn’t be trying to poison him any longer. Granted, I said some things here, but I did not post things like that where he was likely to see them nor did I encourage my friends to badmouth him. I asked him on Saturday for space- and he hasn’t respected that at all so far because he’s still sending me messages and chattering away at me just like nothing had happened. He’s refusing to respect my “no” and that’s not okay.

At the urging of a friend, I joined FetLife, which is a rather interesting place. Basically its Facebook for fetistists/kinksters. Creating my profile was interesting, as has been browsing the site in general. I found a few people I know right off, which honestly, while nice, was not a surprise. Some of the people I found I’m quite fond of, while others… well, I won’t be communicating with them there, either. But such is social networking, right?

I think I’ve lost a few pounds over these last few weeks, though not because I was trying. If I’ve been out of the house, I’ve eaten once per day, and at home, maybe twice, and half the time its been salad. I just don’t have an appetite most days. Am I depressed? I’m honestly not sure. On the surface I feel pretty good- I’m free of the confines of the unhappiness of my last relationship, and I can do what I want now. I can focus on making myself happy, instead of someone who can’t be happy no matter what I did. I’m free to branch out, meet new people, pursue what I like, and say no to what I don’t. But at the same time, I’m unhappy at having to have had to move back to my mom’s. This is not my home. I honestly don’t know where home is at this point and I feel somewhat unmoored.

I saw my psychologist yesterday and I requested a refill on my Klonopin Rx. I still have several left, but I like having it just in case. I took one every night the week we broke up, but haven’t touched them since. And I’ve been working off of the same 30 tablets for over a year so its not like I just take them all the time.

Today I was supposed to meet with County Mental Health’s Employment Specialist, but I cancelled and rescheduled my appointment for after the first. I messed up my finances pretty badly this month and I don’t have gas money to make trips I absolutely don’t have to into town. I sold some stuff at the beginning of the month, and I had less expenses, but between paying off some small debts and eating in town a lot, I managed to overspend for the month and now I’m counting pennies until next month’s money comes in. Next month will be better though. I just need to track my spending better and stick to my budget. I can do this.

I also saw Princess yesterday and we hung out for a little while. It was nice to see her and nicer to see she’d gotten rid of her husband. Seems to be a lot of that going around. She’s looking fabulous though and the kids- OMG! The girl is 14 now and beautiful, and the oldest boy is 6 foot and trying to learn to play guitar. I was like damn it. I feel so old seeing them as closer to adulthood then babyhood.

I did get most of my stuff tucked away into the spare room, so I can say most of my belongings have been put up. There’s still a few things laying around the house, but its still progress made. And my mom is making an effort (finally) to clean up the rest of the house. She’s sent me into town with 4 kitchen trash bags full of stuff to be donated, and thrown away a bunch more. Of course there’s still a ton to go through but any progress is good. I still need to get her to take in the old electronics to the drop off and that would clear out a lot of space in the house. But baby steps….

And I got rid of almost half of my yarn! Stuff I wasn’t completely in love with I sold, with a few more still to go. It made a big difference in getting things put away.

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Recipes

Beer Bread

Ingredients:

Dough:

  • 3 cups self-rising flour -or-
    1 ΒΌth teaspoons baking power & 1/8th teaspoon salt to each cup of all-purpose flour
  • 1/4th cup sugar
  • 12 oz. beer

Directions:

  1. Preheat oven to 350*. Mix all ingredients until well combined. Pour into greased pan.
  2. Place in oven and bake for 35 minutes.

Nutritional Info:

Makes 8 servings of 1 slice each. Each slice has 200 calories, 0.5 grams of fat, 0 grams of fiber, 5 grams of protein, and 40 grams of carbs.

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My (New) Precious!

So for a couple of months I’ve been seeing this ad on Craigslist. I could tell from the photo it was at a pawn shop, I just didn’t know which one.

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Its a gorgeous guitar. Like super gorgeous. I kept going back to look at it.

The night before last I texted the contact number and asked if it was still available and where the shop was located. I got the address and promised to stop by sometime after I finished up with my other plans on Thursday.

Thursday morning I met Tracy and Jami at Starbucks by Joann’s. The three of us have a love for coffee, crafting, good food, and drinks, and it was Jami’s birthday so we had coffee, chatted a while, then went to Joann’s where we all bought a few items.

Then we migrated to Michael’s, where we wandered the store for ages, picked out a few things, and headed to Medrano’s to lunch. One of things I picked up at Michael’s was these little beaded rings which will make great knitting stitch markers!

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They were on clearance, and I like the colors, so its a big win!

Medrano’s saw us ordering lunch and 2 cocktails each, where we maybe got Jami way more intoxicated than intended, but we had a good time and the waiter was great. After that we drove Jami home, took Jason to pick up the car, and we went our separate ways.

While we were eating, they came out and sang Happy Birthday to Jami and put the hat on her. It was pretty funny! (Sorry its so out of focus- we were all laughing pretty hard.)

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I went to Guitar Center because I needed to pick up an order that came in (just some little stuff) and then headed back to Lancaster to the pawn shop. I had to be buzzed in, and the place was pretty spartan, but that seems pretty standard for the pawn shops I have been in (which is exactly 2 including this one). I asked to see the Peavey bass and a guy took it down off of the wall and handed to me. My first response wasΒ holy crap this thing is heavy! followed by hearts streaming out of my eyes. Seriously. Love at first sight. So freaking beautiful. I held it, caressed it, pretended to play it, and then I bought it.

So now she’s sitting in our music room. Mattie offered to let me use his old bass amp, and I talked to the nice folks at Sweetwater (who I cannot recommend enough- they helped me research a product they don’t even carry after I had only spent $5 with them) and on Wednesday I should have a stand, cable, and strap arriving from them.

The strings are free of corrosion and look good, so I am hoping I don’t need to change them anytime soon. I haven’t tried to tune it yet.

I told someone I feel like Goldilocks- trying all the instruments out, looking for the perfect fit.

 

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Christmas! πŸŽ„ Merry Christmas!Β 

So Christmas has come and it was a rather good one. Not just because of the gifts, though those were pretty awesome this year, but because we got to see friends, family, and enjoy good food.

We went to my mom’s on Christmas Eve and had dinner with her, and found out she’s basically been hoarding craft supplies from a previous sale at her work for Christmas gifts. Mattie got a $30 gift card, and I got yarn, and a box of miscellaneous craft – related items.

Sunday morning Mattie and I did our gift exchange. He seemed to be pretty happy with what I got him, and he gave me about a zillion books. Knitting, crochet, and coloring.

Later on his dad and brother came over and we sat down to a nice dinner (giant hunk of cow + baked potato + broccoli + cider & pumpkin cheesecake for dessert. We did our gift exchange after dinner and everyone seemed to be happy with what they got. Me? I got an Amazon gift card from Geoff, and his dad got me a baritone ukulele + padded gig bag + method book. Squeeee!

So now it’s time for pictures!

 

Two of the coloring books above I bought for myself but the rest were all from Mattie.

And the best gift of all! I look a mess, but isn’t it pretty?

Not pictured are bobbins for my most recent sewing machine, double pointed knitting needles, and colored pencils. You can kinda see the clip on tuner on the headstock of the uke in the above photo.

One of my gifts, another set of DPNs, never arrived, so Mattie will be contacting Amazon about them sometime today.

I ordered some stuff already with the gift card I received, including a “world’s okayest ukulele player” t-shirt, two more Crochet Lite hooks, a knitting book, a new oven thermometer, a ball of yarn, and a few other items.

Anyway, I hope you had a wonderful holiday weekend! New Years is up next!

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