• A Busy Day For Me

    May 22, 2021 /

    Today was a long day, but a good day. I started off going to my consult with the surgeon about my ear. He had a look at it, and exposed being worried about what I would feel about my ear after the Lumpy Brothers are removed. There’s a good chance my ear will look nothing like it did before, but right now, I’ve got two big ass growths on my ear (that are not keloids) that itch and cause my pain 24/7. Fuck what my ear looks like afterwards. Take those fuckers off!

    After I left the surgeon’s office, i grabbed myself some lunch and drive to the senior center where i dropped off 7 boxes of faux flowers with a promise of more to come in the near future.

    Then I cruised over to Psycho City and waited for Bob to show up. We got started a little early and got through there outlines and details before I called it quits. Basically, we stopped just short of adding colors.

    This tattoo is a little different for me because it’s my first cover-up piece. The tattoo it’s covering is 20 years old, looks as terrible as it did on day one, and I’ve pretty much hated it since day one.

    What we’re covering is an ugly, naked fairy on a smoking mushroom. We’re turning it into a pair of hammerhead sharks circling a coral island, with kelp in the background. I’m due to go back on the July 3rd and hopefully we can knock most of it out then.

    Tomorrow though, i have so much homework to get done!

  • Menstrual Cup

    September 16, 2020 /

    A month or so ago, I decided to take the plunge and order a menstrual cup. I’ve never used one but I kept hearing how it would be a literal game changer.

    A few days ago, I started my period and tried my new cup. It was uncomfortable to insert, and it wouldn’t open over it was in. I ordered a smaller size and today it arrived.

    It was immediately easier to insert, and I could actually place it properly to where I couldn’t feel it. It was also able to fully open once inside of me.

    And! The best part! No leaks, no ruining clothing or sheets or furniture. Just smooth sailing all day. Emptying it was a bit of a challenge as once the cup is placed right, I can’t reach it, so I need to bear down and “birth” it so I can reach the stem. But it pulls out easily enough, and was simple to dunno into the toilet. It did look pretty gruesome though! Lol

    Then a quick wash under the tap and back in.

    I’m already convinced this is the best thing I should have tried years ago.

  • You Know What Sucks?

    November 15, 2019 /

    Being so fucking broke you can’t just buy toothpaste. I am so close to paying off the smallest chunk of my debt, which is great, but then I need to borrow to buy things like toothpaste, tampons, other personal items.

    So stupid that this shit is so expensive. Thankfully next month I should have quite a bit more wiggle room in my budget if I just pay minimums on everything.

    I was planning to pay something off in full next month but I don’t think that’s going to happen with Christmas sliding in soon. I can’t believe it’s already freaking November! The middle of November even. Where did this year go?

    I’ve got my mom covered for Christmas, but I have no idea what to buy anyone else. I did see a cute little item Tracy would enjoy that’s inexpensive, but beyond that? And I don’t have time to make things this year at all with school taking up most of my time.

    Sometimes I really hate the winter holidays…

    Eta… The reason things are so right this month is because I had multiple extra expenses. My phone needed to be replaced, and that was an extra $45 and there’s the fee for the craft event I’m doing in a few weeks at another $30. I know $75 might not be a lot for some of you but for me it really is a lot.

    I did sell a few things and am awaiting the deposits for them which will help but that won’t come in until next week.

  • Weight Watchers & Points vs Calories

    April 28, 2019 /

    I’m trying to trust the process but I also have a big question. Here we go.

    My issues have always been with portion control. I’m good at eating mostly healthy foods. I don’t eat much bread, rice, pasta, heavy carbs in general. If I don’t eat sweets, I don’t crave them. I drink 85% plain water, and a lot of it at that.

    So even though I’m only one week in, I’m finding its super easy to have eaten 2000 calories of healthy food in a day but only spending 15 or 20 of my 39 daily points.

    I looked up my BMR (basil metabolic rate) and according to the internet, I need about 2600 calories a day to maintain my current weight (310lbs).

    So where do I draw the line, so to speak? Eating all my daily points seems like an excess of food. I’m not going hungry. But it just seems like the free foods make this too lenient. I feel like I’m cheating their system without even trying. The old system has a clear relationship between points and calories but with this system, the relationship is very unclear.

    Today was more in line with what they want (I got the blue dot). But I also decided to track in a second app that counts calories at the same time.

    I feel like I have literally been eating all day today. I haven’t, but I mean I had mostly healthy foods plus a little junk. That junk is the only reason I got my blue dot today.

    I’m going to track in both apps for the 3 months I agreed to commit to WW and see where things are at that point.

    Eta…. Basically I’m seeing that if you don’t eat a lot of junk food or carb-dense foods, you’re going to cheat the program just by eating generally healthy foods. And we all know cheating the program doesn’t work.

    I posted this query in a few places and I caught a lot of flack from WW fans who oddly enough mostly agreed that 1) the plan is always right, and 2) put need to track calories in order to succeed.

    Tomorrow I’ll be calling to see what it will cost me to cancel my subscription. The biggest selling point of Weight Watchers has been that you could still eat the foods you love, but apparently that’s not true.

  • Weight Watchers Redux

    April 24, 2019 /

    I joined Weight Watchers this morning. It helped me lose a lot of weight before and I really need to do it all again. I hurt. My body isn’t strong like it was. I’m tired all the time. I have pretty bad sleep apnea because of my weight. I can go on and on.

    I joined up, downloaded the app, and logged in. I input my height and weight. I started tracking my food.

    Later tonight, I was browsing the app in more detail and discovered my weight was listed at almost 700 pounds! Apparently when I input my weight in pounds, it registered as kilograms, then converted back to pounds. Took a few minutes to fix it but it explained why my points allowances seemed so generous.

    I logged my steps and the stair climbing I did today, which earned me a whole 3 points. That’s basically nothing but I know I can do better.