Another Dream

I had the weirdest dream. I was at a huge 3 story mall and I had returned something and got $26 back. A $20, a $5, and a $1.

I was walking the mall, and this guy in bad drag picked my pocket and kept pretending to give me back my money but it was all obvious fakes. $3 bills and stuff.

Somehow I knew he was really a fish and I got him to change back to his fish form so I put him in a baggie and took him to the mall cops. He was a danio. But he died in the bag before it was my turn (I had to wait in line until they called my number) and they could make him give my money back.

The mall cop gave me $26 after writing up so crazy report that the pet store overcharged me by that much and a refund was owed, and then I got in my car and drove home.

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Crafting · General

Christmas is Coming!

I’ve completely turned into one of those people. Its not even Thanksgiving yet and I’m itching to set up my little Christmas tree, with its tiny little ornaments, fake birds, and big fluffy bow on top. I’m ready to wrap the little crocheted tree skirt around its base, and plug in my single strand of lights after wrapping them around it. And I’m ready to start shopping, and wrapping my gifts to place under it.

I think I’ve got my mom’s Christmas gift figured out. I’m just hoping some of the components will go on sale soon (yes Black Friday / Cyber Monday, I’m looking at you!) and I can save a few bucks because it’s not an inexpensive gift I’m planning.

I had mom write me a check and mailed it off to the Antelope Valley Indian Museum so on December 2nd, I’ll be there selling my makes. I didn’t really make anything new and I actually donated a lot of my stock to thrift but it was stuff I didn’t feel amazing about and would have felt weird about selling.

I’m hoping to bring home $50 and I can put that towards Christmas shopping, but honestly the Antelope Valley Indian Museum is one of the places I like to support anyway so I’m not super concerned with heavy profiting there. I’m just glad to be able to help them out.

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Adulting LOL

Yesterday was filled with adulting. I woke up at 6am, got dressed, put on a little makeup, and got Yuba ready to go out. I put on his thundershirt and his harness, and we got in the car. We drove to the vet and pretty soon my little boy was checked in for surgery. He was getting neutered.

I drove to the bank, pulled out money, and went to Home Depot and bought some garage hooks to temporarily hang up my ukes. Then I went to Dollar Tree and bought some nail polish.

I tried the 99¢ Only store but they don’t have nail polish and by them it was almost time for Guitar Center to open. I went in, bought a wall mount guitar hanger and then headed back towards Lancaster.

On the way, I stopped at Horizon Comics and looked to see if he had volume 3 of Paper Girls in yet. He didn’t, but I ended up buying two volumes of I Hate Fairyland instead.

From there I went to the beauty school and got my hair trimmed and sides shaved again. Then gas in the car, money into my other bank, and home.

Once home, I made some phone calls for my mom and watched a few episodes of Rick and Morty and paid some bills. Then it was time to go pick up Yubi.

Yubi heard my voice and came straight to me when they brought him out. My poor baby boy was so glad to see me. And he was out of  it enough that the ride home was uneventful for him.

After we got home, I did the dishes, and got something to eat. I also ordered a few things I needed from Amazon.

It was a long day, but I got a lot done. Today won’t be as long or busy, but I going to be out of the house for most of the evening.

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Things Coming Up

I’ve got some things coming up and I’m kinda overwhelmed by them. As usual, I forgot my car registration is coming due. So that’s $96 in October. And when Yuba turns 4 months old, which is just in a few weeks, he’ll be getting neutered, another $95 + maybe a little more. And there’s little expenses that aren’t my regular ones I need to take care of. I could delay his neutering but I want it done as young as possible so maybe he’ll never start lifting his leg. I hate when boy dogs pee all over everything. And then there’s the $288 I owe Verizon… They’ve been sending me bills on the regular, so that really needs to get paid off too ASAP.

The first weekend in October is Bark at the Park… which I really want to go to with Yuba, but I need to see if he can manage to walk nicely on a least first. We’ve been working on sit and down though with the boys and they already have sit down pretty well. Down is a work in progress but we’ve just started practicing it a few days ago. I have almost 2 months to work on walking on the leash though so I think he’ll be fine. 🙂

I mean one way or another I’ll manage to juggle it all but I’m just like ugh! Everything comes on all at once! I’m honestly thinking of putting it all on a credit card… I hate to do it, because interest, but I could easily pay it off over 3 months and it would all be done with a lot less stress.


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General · Health

I’m Okay

Things have cooled off and I feel like I’m in a much better place emotionally/mentally. I feel calmer, more in control, and less… well, crazy. This is good. I’m okay.

I’ve managed to sell a few more things, including some yarn and some books, and hope to sell more over the next few weeks. I have my car registration coming up in October, and I need to get Yuba neutered, which is going to cost me another hundred bucks or so. Money I don’t typically have just laying around. I also want to get some more piercings, which will cost money too.

Right now, my extra expenses over the next few months are basically $96 car registration, $100 Yuba’s neutering, and whatever it will cost for my next piercings. I’d like a few rings put through my outer labia, a second set of holes in my earlobes, and I kinda want my belly button done but I’m not sure if that can happen because of the scarring I have from two surgeries through my navel. There’s also Bark at the Park in October that I want to take Yuba to, and I would like to have about $30 of spending money for that as well.

I’m working on housebreaking Yuba, which was going really well, but then we got down to one other puppy, and when he was brought inside, everything went to shit. Tonight I’ve got them both in my room and they will both go in the crate tonight and hopefully there won’t be any messes to clean up because in theory they will tell me when they need to go out in the morning and I will rush them outside and treat them for going potty like good puppies.

I don’t really have much else going on right now. Its mostly puppies and puppies and more puppies, and getting holes punched in me. I can’t remember if I posted about it, but a month after I got my nips done, I went back and got a VCH and my septum done too.

Oh! And I finally got the spare room set up as my craft room, so that’s good. I just haven’t done any work in there yet. I started to one day, but it didn’t happen.

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Good News!

After finding out about my additional diagnosis, I spent the next 24 hours or so wracked by intense anxiety. I’m honestly not sure if that was what brought it on or not, but it was rough. I wanted to do anything to change how I was feeling, but Liz convinced me not to do anything (at least not make any decisions except to possibly take a Klonopin) until the anxiety had passed.

The next day I woke up sick. The cold Mattie brought home last week found its new home in me and ugh. I felt like death warmed over. But that’s all crappy stuff.

The good news is I got a letter from Social Security and they are reinstating my SSI payments and will review me again in 3 years. I’m also feeling a lot better today, so that’s good too. 🙂

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Conversations with Chris

Me: So did I show you my pussy? Damn it. My pussy hat.
Chris: You know I know you mean that women’s movement thing.
Me: Stupid phone. Making me sound dirty. I’m almost done with the second one someone is paying me money for.
Chris: I knew you would make money with your pussy. I’ve been saying it for years.

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General · Music

Christmas is Coming

So as some of you know, I’m on disability, and I’m basically a broke-ass mother. I set myself at doing all my survey companies’ invites every freaking day and in 2 weeks I’ve collected almost $50 in Amazon gift cards with a few more really close to paying out. I’ve also managed to save about $70 in the last 2 months by having $1 transferred to my savings every time I use my debit card. I apparently do more shopping than I thought I did.

Anyway, I’m trying to do my Christmas shopping way ahead so there’s no “OMG It’s freaking December and what am I going to do?!?” panic. I’ve purchased for my mom and her boyfriend, for Mattie’s brother, and 4 small items for Mattie. I have no idea what to get his dad at all, and Tracy’s gift idea is something I will need to make her but it will only take a few days I think to do provided I can really focus on it. Its something I planned for several months back but no rush on it because its basically a simply just time consuming project. I already have everything I need.

I’m also trying to do my research on getting a cello. I’ve scoped out a few makers and while I’ve found one I am fairly confident about on Amazon (having seen the same model in person), I would much buy from an actual instrument maker or music shop in person. Especially because they are expensive. Basically I am looking at at least $600 for a very beginner’s model. Eek! I’m also reading Craigslist ads and checking other places for uses instruments but I’m not sure where I’m going to find the right one.

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Crafting · General

Pictures & Words :p

I’ve got lots of photos and plenty of words for you this time. This month is crazy busy with appointments because I got my surgery date (finally!) and will be getting my tubal ligation on the 20th. That means I’ve had to drive all over the damn place for my pre-surgical tests but I’ve just finished my last one. Of course the day before its clear liquids only and I have to drink some icky stuff to flush me out, which I am hoping won’t interfere with the fact I see my psych doctor that same day.

I think adding the Zoloft to my daily regimen has helped. My manic episodes have tapered off for the most part to just low level hypo-manic, which is good because I feel mostly in control through those. I will discuss it with my doctor and we’ll decide whether to bump up my Geodon a bit or not.


img_20160403_220508447_hdr.jpgI crocheted this basket for my craft room, using one strand each of Jade and Burgundy (Red heart super saver). It was pretty quick but larger hooks hurt my hands so I was glad when it was finished.

This cute little daikon radish was super fast and easy to make! I loved doing his greenery afterwards and figured he could use a bit of a face so stitched his eyes on as well. As stated in the pattern, you could also use it to make a carrot. 🙂 You can find the pattern on Ravelry.

I made two baby blankets as well, one of which (not pictured) I gave to Dee next door for Miranda, and one of which I am giving to a girl from the pool hall who is pregnant (below). This one is just a granny pentagon- super easy and quick to make. I think I spent a few hours over two days on this one.


I made this super cute dinosaur stuffie for Tracy, and even gave him a smirk to match hers, though it was entirely accidental. His pattern is also located through Ravelry. I did shorten his neck and tail a bit because I was running short on yarn, but otherwise he’s pretty much like the pattern indicates.


Last Wednesday I drove to Burbank and picked up Mattie at the airport and on the way home we stopped at Creative Ewe. So many gorgeous yarns, really nice store, and wonderful people staffing it. I am looking forward to going back when I can actually shop.


Thursday we had a craft day (Tracy, Jami, and I) and we made these tasty sandwiches for lunch along with salad and of course lots of tasty snacks. She even got a lemon tart which was so good!


I finally knit my Wurm hat, or as I am calling it, the beehive hat, complete with many many bees! It’s silly but I love it and I can’t stop wearing it.


My yarn order that UPS failed to deliver, and then a few days later delivered to the wrong house. Finally arrived.


Our last photos for today are two of my favorite face in the world. 🙂 She finally got over being mad at Mattie after he came home from his trip and decided she wanted to spend some time snuggling with him. A bad, blurry photo I know but she was so cute sitting in his lap in his chair!


She’s also been spending a lot of time in silly positions lately. The weather is getting warmer so its all about exposing her belly!


I also finally tracked down the High Desert Ukulele Club completely by accident. Tom and I were at dinner at the Greenhouse Cafe yesterday and I saw they were meeting in the next room, so maybe in a few weeks I will join them and actually learn to play it.

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About That Loan…

So back on the 8th I posted about going to the bank because one of the accounts paid off with my debt consolidation loan was not mine because someone put an account number in wrong. I had been back to the bank something like 4 times since and only yesterday did they finally give me a check made out to the creditor so I could mail it in and get it taken care of.

First off, the account they tried to pay off did not exist so their electronic payment bounced right back. They immediately cut a paper check and mailed it to that same non-existent account only this time they put my name on it as if that would make it suddenly fixable. Nope. It still didn’t get paid. It took me a few weeks to find this out.

During my visits to the bank, I was told I would be paid out in cash, or with a check to me or with a check to the creditor. None of those things were happening. Finally on the 27th, after having my investigation of the whole matter expedited twice I waited another 2 hours in the branch and they cut me a check made out to the creditor which I mailed off myself that afternoon after writing my correct account number on it and printing out my statement and sending it all in.

Now I’m waiting for the check to get to Florida and then I’m also waiting for the check back from another creditor who the bank overpaid. That money will go towards paying off the new interest that the account they fucked up paying on generated during the month everything was in limbo. I’m rather irritated but what can I do? At least now things are finally getting taken care of like they should be more or less.

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