school

Fuck Me

Today was one those those days where basically nothing goes right. I had some packages to mail out so I left for class an hour earlier than usual to be sure I had time to find a post office and send them off before my lab.

Google maps was less than helpful, sending me 20 minutes out of my way to the Santa Clarita mail distro center which does not offer retail services. By the time I find a retail location and got my packages mailed, I was late for my lab.

In lab, we got to take a peek at our last lecture exam scores. I failed. Most of the class failed. At this point, assuming I get 90% of the points allotted for all other activities, and I get at least 50% on the final lecture exam, I should be able to scrape by with a C in the class. This is frustrating because this class is the backbone for my entire program. I don’t think it’s all on me though. Most of the class is failing and I feel like that’s on the instructor too.

I also found out that my presentation partner for lecture dropped the class and didn’t tell me. Same thing happened to one of my lab group members, so we paired up… And then he told me he might drop too. Whatever. I have an idea and I’m going with it either way. With our without him.

Lecture tonight was basically canceled. We still had to show up and judge the two presentations that were presented tonight, which was fun. One was on augmented reality and one was on tardigrades. We get points for that so it’s an easy way to help my grade.

Fuck though. I’m so frustrated with this course right now. I really wanted a B but at this point I would be thrilled with that C.

Why Do I Have All This Stuff?

I think my brain is working towards hypomania… I’ve been busting my ass organizing and culling stuff to be donated or just thrown away.

Last night I went through all my clothes and everything that is nowhere near able to fit or just not my style anymore was washed and loaded into the car to be donated. There was an entire kitchen trash bag full and then a bit more. I also added a pair of almost brand new heels that while super cute, I just don’t wear heels anymore. So cute though. Wish I could justify keeping them.

I went through the end of my closet where all my kitchen stuff plus some random other stuff is and added a ton of computer paper to the donation pile. I also decided to donate some of my stuffed animals. Someone is going to get some super cute giraffe stuffies!

I still have a stack of papers to go through and figure out where to put my drop spindle and fiber, but that shouldn’t be too hard. I’m thinking about posting photos of my pvc ukulele stand to offer it up for sale. I don’t need it and can’t use it unless by some miracle we get rid of the mice in this house.

I still need to study for my exam that’s this evening. Hopefully I can at least get a C this time.

Fishy Frenzy, Destashing, & Back to School

I ended up with a 29 gallon instead of a 20 long- same footprint but a bit taller. Lola still hates the guppies but not as aggressively now that there’s a lot more space. I did lose one (never did see the body) but the other two are doing well. I’ve also added 8 zebra danios and 6 black tetras. There’s also a black mystery snail and a gold inca snail. I’ve added more plants too which I hope take off and grow like mad. I might add a bristlenose pleco if I can find one but that should be about it.

I destashed and donated 4 bags of craft supplies, finished crafts, and books, plus the two small acrylic tanks and all their accessories. That let me free up quite a bit of space so I could clean up a bit more. I have a few boxes to break down and take out still, plus a comic book box that housed sewing patterns that I can unfold and store in the closet.

Last week on the 5th I started class. BIOSCI100. Its mostly review for me so far but its fun. Not too challenging but we’ll see how I do on the first exam. I still need to find a partner for the presentation we have to give and choose a topic. I have a few ideas but gotta find a partner first.

Project Get My Shit Together

I met with my Department of Rehab counselor today and we spent a little over an hour working up my plan to become a medical lab technician or maybe a medical laboratory scientist. I could be a legit actual scientist!

Basically, it looks like this :

  • Complete perquisites at CoC
  • Meet program requirements (things like health testing, malpractice insurance)
  • Complete degree
  • Sit for state licensing exam
  • Find employment
  • Continue to support me thru first 3 months of employment

They’ll be paying for everything, even my transportation fees, which is pretty amazing.

Tonight I applied for admission at College of the Canyons and also applied for FAFSA.

In two weeks I’ll be attending orientation for the program, and hopefully I’ll have all my questions in order by them.

One of those questions is if I take the Phlebotomy elective within the program, does this get me my phlebotomy cert, which is a requirement for admission into the program. If it doesn’t, will I be better off getting my cert thru AV Adult School instead?

There’s a lot to think about but taking everything one step at a time will ensure everything is done right.

What Should I Do With Myself?

People of the Internet! The Department of Rehabilitation is willing to pay to send me back to school. But I’m having trouble deciding what I would like to go to school for/a career end goal.

I’m editing this post because I’ve been researching, reading, and thinking, and I think what I really want is a career that challenges me regularly, and let’s me actually help people.

Every job I’ve held in the past I’ve ended up hating because it just seemed so pointless and meaningless in the grand scheme of things, so I think helping others might be what I really should be doing.

  1. Aerospace. We have a strong aerospace presence here locally and there’s a program here that employers in that field often hand pick from. I enjoy working with my hands, and it’s a practical choice.
  2. Psychology. Brains are crazy interesting as are minds and my mental illness makes this even more interesting to me. I’m just not 100% sure I want to work as a medical care giver. Possibly work as a researcher.
  3. Biology. I’m considering Medical Lab Technician or maybe Veterinary Technician in the Biology area. There’s also Physician’s Assistant as well.
  4. Mortuary Sciences. I’m waiting to hear back from the head of this program at Cypress, as their list is requirements make their program a little iffy for me. They required proof of good mental health and I’m not sure how they determine this.

The good thing is I have a lot of general ed classes already completed and some coursework that might carry over for some of these ideas’ core courses. I honestly wouldn’t need a lot of coursework at the Associate’s level so it seems like no big deal to go one further, you know?

Not to brag, but I’m smart. I’m a really good learner. And after 30 hours of testing in just about everything, DOR basically told me I have an incredibly exceptional mind and I could be placed anywhere…. Which isn’t really helpful. “Yo kid, the sky’s the limit! Let’s not help narrow things down or anything!”

I’m sitting here now trying to come up with some genuinely interesting areas to look into before I meet with my counselor at the end of the month.

When I wake up tomorrow I’m going to try to get an appointment with a counselor at the college and see if they can help me narrow things down. I’m trying to be proactive but it’s hard when I’ve been so passive all my life.