• Man, Time Flies!

    I got the 55 gallon tank set up, and I moved Juice and Goose into it. They were doing great, I used cycled filters to pretty much instantly cycle it. Two days later, Juice was dead when I woke up. I have no idea what happened to her. ๐Ÿ™

    After a few days, Goose was acting upset because he no longer had a buddy, so I spent several hours driving all over the valley looking for friends for him. The weather has been way too hot to try to have a friend shipped to me, so I was on a mission to find a pair of lively, healthy pet store fancy goldfish.

    After visiting three stores, I saw two goldies I really liked. An orange and white oranda, and a silver and black ryukin, which a button eye. Unfortunately, they’re both really small and Goose was terrorizing them, so Goose went back to the 75 gallon and the two babies have the 55 gallon all to themselves right now. They’ve settled in really nicely though now that Goose isn’t in there bothering them.

    Tejon scraped his elbow a couple weeks ago, and now that it should be healed, it isn’t, because he’s been fussing over it constantly. Ugh. He might need a shirt until it heals.

    The Fall semester starts in about 3 weeks. I’m looking forward to it but I’m also stressing a little. But I know as long as I get all my homework in in Spanish 102, I’ll pass. I probably know a lot more than I think I do.

    I’ve also been finding ways to basically automate Plex and its been really fun to get things set up and going, but I want to set up a dedicated computer to act as the PMS for my household because all this stuff really is pretty resource intensive. I’ve been watching Dell.com for a decent machine with plenty of RAM and a good processor to either go on sale or show up in the Outlet.

    I also finally, after over a year with only one pair of pants, 2 dresses, and maybe 6 shirts, ordered new clothes. I got a bunch of tops, and enough pants and shorts to wear a different pair every day of the week. I also ordered new shows which I really, really needed, and I was able to throw out all my torn, holey clothes, and donate things in good repair that don’t fit. I bought clothing suitable for summer, fall, and winter.

    Tomorrow I’ll be culling more stuff to donate and throw out, and seeing what I can do about my closet space so I ccan actually put all my new clothes away.

  • A Little Bit Closer

    My registration date for the Fall 2020 semester was finally posted, and I’ve figured out which sections I’m going to enroll in. I think. I’ll be taking CHEM151 and SPAN102 (again) so hopefully this next semester won’t be too bad. My registration slot opens on the 13th, so I’ve got a little less than two weeks to get it sorted out.

    Not much going on in my quiet quarantine life. I’ve been out to get a haircut, which I really needed, and tomorrow I’m getting tattooed. All the masks, all the time I’m out. I hate them but its at least a little protection for those around me.

    If I have time, I’ll load up some more stuff to be donated in my car to drop off while I’m out tomorrow. I have a few bags of stuff already ready to go, but there’s some big items as well.

    I have been buying snacks for us off Amazon when the prices are right, and today I got a huge delivery of what may have been too many snacks. We’re either going to be set on snacks for a couple months, or we’re going to need diets in a month. One of the things I got was a 12-pack of those little packs of Fig Newtons. I love them. They’re my all-time favorite cookie. Well, we left them on the counter and at about 10pm tonight I hear the very suspicious sound of a doggo chewing plastic. I go to investigate and first I find sveral mangled and empty Fig Newton packages. Great. Where’s the main package and all the rest?

    Yuba was curled up with the rest of his treat eating cushion, proud of himself for hunting down this tasty, sweet treat. The other day his sweet tooth led him to drink a cup of coffee.

    Anyway, 7 snack packs of cookies remain, unmolested, for human consumption. We’re all in bed now and I hope we won’t be up all night with upset bellies from eating too many sweet treats.

    What else did I get…. Another bar of Yardley soap, which smells incredible, has a thick, lotiony lather, and it also super inexpensive. Tejon thinks the soap smells amazing and I should let him eat it.

    I also got a really cool jigsaw puzzle which I hope we can manage to put together without the cats losing any pieces. Its double-sides, which a scene of succulents on both sides. Its going to be fun to put together! (aka hard)

    Ziggy is still doing poorly and I reached out to the people I bought him from. I really think its a swim bladder issue at this point but I’m only 5 months into goldfish keeping so what do I know? What I see is his body looks healthy, there’s no visible signs of injury or illness, he still had good appetite and chases his girlfriend around, but he can;t swim any higher than the bottom third and when he stops actively swimming, he just headstands. If there’s something I can do for him, I would like to do it.

    Right now though I’m going to take my meds, go pee, and finish this movie so I can be rested for my appointment tomorrow. Goodnight!

  • It’s Over. I Survived.

    The spring semester ended last week and I’m mostly happy with how things turned out. I filled for an Excused Withdrawal in Spanish 102, and i got a solid C (about 74%) in both Human Anatomy and Physiology II, and Intermediate Algebra. I’m okay with that. They’re passing grades and and that’s what I need. Mostly I’m just relieved that these classes are behind me now.

    As I think I said, I’m taking the summer off. In Fall I will be taking chemistry, and next spring, microbiology. I’m kinda worried about micro, off I’m being honest. But I’ll make it through, the same as I have these classes- one day at as time.

    I have all this free time right now and I literally can’t motivate myself to do anything with that time, except a little self care.

    I had my hair cut yesterday (Big Mike’s Barber Shop in Lancaster) and Mike made me look great. Then he put a little aftershave on my head and oh my goodness. I smelled so nice all day. I’ve seen him a message asking what it was because I need to buy some.

    I also downloaded a couple dating apps which I have mixed feelings about. I’m trying a couple that are focused on bisexual dating but there’s just no one in my area. I just want to have coffee with someone and have an enjoyable conversation.

    I also dropped off a bunch of donations to thrift, so my car is almost cleaned out at this point. I have a few other things to take in but will do that on another day.

    Today I’m hoping to write a couple letters and maybe do some cross stitching. I need to do the dishes and collect trash around the house to take out. I also need to put away my new yarn and maybe choose some to be donated. Or maybe cast something on.

  • Let’s Keep It Going!

    I did some Googling and the black tetras are black Neon tetras. They’re pretty flashy for not having bright colors, which means I can really enjoy them without Lola feeling threatened by them.

    Since my tank is mostly stocked now I went ahead and ordered some stuff for the boys. A new bed for Tejony, toys, treats, and a can of freeze dried brine shrimp for the fishes.

    I have another bag nearly filled with donations and I’m hoping to finish filling it plus a second bag over the weekend. I’d also like to get some crafting done today but I dunno about that… Lol.

  • Fishy Frenzy, Destashing, & Back to School

    I ended up with a 29 gallon instead of a 20 long- same footprint but a bit taller. Lola still hates the guppies but not as aggressively now that there’s a lot more space. I did lose one (never did see the body) but the other two are doing well. I’ve also added 8 zebra danios and 6 black tetras. There’s also a black mystery snail and a gold inca snail. I’ve added more plants too which I hope take off and grow like mad. I might add a bristlenose pleco if I can find one but that should be about it.

    I destashed and donated 4 bags of craft supplies, finished crafts, and books, plus the two small acrylic tanks and all their accessories. That let me free up quite a bit of space so I could clean up a bit more. I have a few boxes to break down and take out still, plus a comic book box that housed sewing patterns that I can unfold and store in the closet.

    Last week on the 5th I started class. BIOSCI100. Its mostly review for me so far but its fun. Not too challenging but we’ll see how I do on the first exam. I still need to find a partner for the presentation we have to give and choose a topic. I have a few ideas but gotta find a partner first.

  • Things to Remove

    Friday

    • 3 monitors
    • 1 scanner
    • 2 printers
    • 1 computer
    • 1 microwave
    • assorted computer peripherals
    • 1 digital picture frame

    All dropped off to the e-waste recycling center

    Friday night I cleared off the bookshelf next to the computer and put it outside.

    Sunday (today)

    • 2 kitchen trash bags filled with trash
    • 19 plastic water bottles picked up from the floors
    • 100 VHS and Betamax tapes sorted into 3 piles-
      1. Home movies for mom to decide what to do with
      2. Store-bought movies to donate
      3. Recorded off TV movies to throw away
    • 1 of the storage units is damaged and will go in the trash
    • 2 of the storage units will be donated along with the movies
    • 4 shopping totes full of books and magazines in good shape to be donated
    • 1 shopping bag of clothing to be donated

    Things to consider-

    • Donating the box of yarn in my car?
    • Donating the ukulele stands in my car?
    • Selling my mountain dulcimer… I never play it and I’m just not in love with her.
  • FML

  • Things

    I’m not really angry anymore, but I am contemplating unfriending Mattie on Facebook, and his mom too. My curiosity got the better of me, and I went trolling back to his posts when he announced our breakup. There was rather a lot of shit talking, which amounted to me being a crazy bitch, a terrible cook (his mother agreed on this even though she’s never eaten my cooking?), and there were comments about how at least I wouldn’t be trying to poison him any longer. Granted, I said some things here, but I did not post things like that where he was likely to see them nor did I encourage my friends to badmouth him. I asked him on Saturday for space- and he hasn’t respected that at all so far because he’s still sending me messages and chattering away at me just like nothing had happened. He’s refusing to respect my “no” and that’s not okay.

    At the urging of a friend, I joined FetLife, which is a rather interesting place. Basically its Facebook for fetistists/kinksters. Creating my profile was interesting, as has been browsing the site in general. I found a few people I know right off, which honestly, while nice, was not a surprise. Some of the people I found I’m quite fond of, while others… well, I won’t be communicating with them there, either. But such is social networking, right?

    I think I’ve lost a few pounds over these last few weeks, though not because I was trying. If I’ve been out of the house, I’ve eaten once per day, and at home, maybe twice, and half the time its been salad. I just don’t have an appetite most days. Am I depressed? I’m honestly not sure. On the surface I feel pretty good- I’m free of the confines of the unhappiness of my last relationship, and I can do what I want now. I can focus on making myself happy, instead of someone who can’t be happy no matter what I did. I’m free to branch out, meet new people, pursue what I like, and say no to what I don’t. But at the same time, I’m unhappy at having to have had to move back to my mom’s. This is not my home. I honestly don’t know where home is at this point and I feel somewhat unmoored.

    I saw my psychologist yesterday and I requested a refill on my Klonopin Rx. I still have several left, but I like having it just in case. I took one every night the week we broke up, but haven’t touched them since. And I’ve been working off of the same 30 tablets for over a year so its not like I just take them all the time.

    Today I was supposed to meet with County Mental Health’s Employment Specialist, but I cancelled and rescheduled my appointment for after the first. I messed up my finances pretty badly this month and I don’t have gas money to make trips I absolutely don’t have to into town. I sold some stuff at the beginning of the month, and I had less expenses, but between paying off some small debts and eating in town a lot, I managed to overspend for the month and now I’m counting pennies until next month’s money comes in. Next month will be better though. I just need to track my spending better and stick to my budget. I can do this.

    I also saw Princess yesterday and we hung out for a little while. It was nice to see her and nicer to see she’d gotten rid of her husband. Seems to be a lot of that going around. She’s looking fabulous though and the kids- OMG! The girl is 14 now and beautiful, and the oldest boy is 6 foot and trying to learn to play guitar. I was like damn it. I feel so old seeing them as closer to adulthood then babyhood.

    I did get most of my stuff tucked away into the spare room, so I can say most of my belongings have been put up. There’s still a few things laying around the house, but its still progress made. And my mom is making an effort (finally) to clean up the rest of the house. She’s sent me into town with 4 kitchen trash bags full of stuff to be donated, and thrown away a bunch more. Of course there’s still a ton to go through but any progress is good. I still need to get her to take in the old electronics to the drop off and that would clear out a lot of space in the house. But baby steps….

    And I got rid of almost half of my yarn! Stuff I wasn’t completely in love with I sold, with a few more still to go. It made a big difference in getting things put away.