I did some Googling and the black tetras are black Neon tetras. They’re pretty flashy for not having bright colors, which means I can really enjoy them without Lola feeling threatened by them.
Since my tank is mostly stocked now I went ahead and ordered some stuff for the boys. A new bed for Tejony, toys, treats, and a can of freeze dried brine shrimp for the fishes.
I have another bag nearly filled with donations and I’m hoping to finish filling it plus a second bag over the weekend. I’d also like to get some crafting done today but I dunno about that… Lol.
I ended up with a 29 gallon instead of a 20 long- same footprint but a bit taller. Lola still hates the guppies but not as aggressively now that there’s a lot more space. I did lose one (never did see the body) but the other two are doing well. I’ve also added 8 zebra danios and 6 black tetras. There’s also a black mystery snail and a gold inca snail. I’ve added more plants too which I hope take off and grow like mad. I might add a bristlenose pleco if I can find one but that should be about it.
I destashed and donated 4 bags of craft supplies, finished crafts, and books, plus the two small acrylic tanks and all their accessories. That let me free up quite a bit of space so I could clean up a bit more. I have a few boxes to break down and take out still, plus a comic book box that housed sewing patterns that I can unfold and store in the closet.
Last week on the 5th I started class. BIOSCI100. Its mostly review for me so far but its fun. Not too challenging but we’ll see how I do on the first exam. I still need to find a partner for the presentation we have to give and choose a topic. I have a few ideas but gotta find a partner first.
- 3 monitors
- 1 scanner
- 2 printers
- 1 computer
- 1 microwave
- assorted computer peripherals
- 1 digital picture frame
All dropped off to the e-waste recycling center
Friday night I cleared off the bookshelf next to the computer and put it outside.
- 2 kitchen trash bags filled with trash
- 19 plastic water bottles picked up from the floors
- 100 VHS and Betamax tapes sorted into 3 piles-
1. Home movies for mom to decide what to do with
2. Store-bought movies to donate
3. Recorded off TV movies to throw away
- 1 of the storage units is damaged and will go in the trash
- 2 of the storage units will be donated along with the movies
- 4 shopping totes full of books and magazines in good shape to be donated
- 1 shopping bag of clothing to be donated
Things to consider-
- Donating the box of yarn in my car?
- Donating the ukulele stands in my car?
- Selling my mountain dulcimer… I never play it and I’m just not in love with her.
That moment when you realize you accidentally donated your full body vinyl catsuit to Goodwill….
— 💖👑My Own Effin Princess👑🌈 (@debslosingit) May 18, 2017
I’m not really angry anymore, but I am contemplating unfriending Mattie on Facebook, and his mom too. My curiosity got the better of me, and I went trolling back to his posts when he announced our breakup. There was rather a lot of shit talking, which amounted to me being a crazy bitch, a terrible cook (his mother agreed on this even though she’s never eaten my cooking?), and there were comments about how at least I wouldn’t be trying to poison him any longer. Granted, I said some things here, but I did not post things like that where he was likely to see them nor did I encourage my friends to badmouth him. I asked him on Saturday for space- and he hasn’t respected that at all so far because he’s still sending me messages and chattering away at me just like nothing had happened. He’s refusing to respect my “no” and that’s not okay.
At the urging of a friend, I joined FetLife, which is a rather interesting place. Basically its Facebook for fetistists/kinksters. Creating my profile was interesting, as has been browsing the site in general. I found a few people I know right off, which honestly, while nice, was not a surprise. Some of the people I found I’m quite fond of, while others… well, I won’t be communicating with them there, either. But such is social networking, right?
I think I’ve lost a few pounds over these last few weeks, though not because I was trying. If I’ve been out of the house, I’ve eaten once per day, and at home, maybe twice, and half the time its been salad. I just don’t have an appetite most days. Am I depressed? I’m honestly not sure. On the surface I feel pretty good- I’m free of the confines of the unhappiness of my last relationship, and I can do what I want now. I can focus on making myself happy, instead of someone who can’t be happy no matter what I did. I’m free to branch out, meet new people, pursue what I like, and say no to what I don’t. But at the same time, I’m unhappy at having to have had to move back to my mom’s. This is not my home. I honestly don’t know where home is at this point and I feel somewhat unmoored.
I saw my psychologist yesterday and I requested a refill on my Klonopin Rx. I still have several left, but I like having it just in case. I took one every night the week we broke up, but haven’t touched them since. And I’ve been working off of the same 30 tablets for over a year so its not like I just take them all the time.
Today I was supposed to meet with County Mental Health’s Employment Specialist, but I cancelled and rescheduled my appointment for after the first. I messed up my finances pretty badly this month and I don’t have gas money to make trips I absolutely don’t have to into town. I sold some stuff at the beginning of the month, and I had less expenses, but between paying off some small debts and eating in town a lot, I managed to overspend for the month and now I’m counting pennies until next month’s money comes in. Next month will be better though. I just need to track my spending better and stick to my budget. I can do this.
I also saw Princess yesterday and we hung out for a little while. It was nice to see her and nicer to see she’d gotten rid of her husband. Seems to be a lot of that going around. She’s looking fabulous though and the kids- OMG! The girl is 14 now and beautiful, and the oldest boy is 6 foot and trying to learn to play guitar. I was like damn it. I feel so old seeing them as closer to adulthood then babyhood.
I did get most of my stuff tucked away into the spare room, so I can say most of my belongings have been put up. There’s still a few things laying around the house, but its still progress made. And my mom is making an effort (finally) to clean up the rest of the house. She’s sent me into town with 4 kitchen trash bags full of stuff to be donated, and thrown away a bunch more. Of course there’s still a ton to go through but any progress is good. I still need to get her to take in the old electronics to the drop off and that would clear out a lot of space in the house. But baby steps….
And I got rid of almost half of my yarn! Stuff I wasn’t completely in love with I sold, with a few more still to go. It made a big difference in getting things put away.
In the last few weeks, I’ve thrown away or donated roughly half of my possessions. I took my desk out of my room and got the TV stand from Mattie’s bedroom to take its place. It takes up a lot less room and ofers still more storage then I need. I got my uke stand into my room, with all my ukes and my uke bass on it, save for the little green one that I am giving to Ashley and Rowan on Tuesday. I’m trying to encourage my mom to throw things away, get rid of clutter, and in general clean up the house. I need to look up where the electronics recycling place is so we can take all kinda of stuff in and get rid of it for good- she is basically hoarding broken electronics because she thinks it costs money to dispose of them. Nope. Its free. Just gotta take them in. I’ve listed several of my books for sale that I’m just not going to use. I’m trying to sell about 50 skeins of yarn I’m just not in love with. There’s just so much stuff that I/we don’t need.
I’ve got a super busy week next week and I hope getting out will be good for me. But I’m so tired from holding my shit together and trying to be productive and I miss having a body next to me at night when I’m sleeping. I miss my dog. I miss Mattie. This shit is hard. I know its for the best, but fuck.
Here’s what’s gone out of my craft room over the last week! Woohoo! No wonder my space feels better.
Shopping bags of stuff donated – 15
– including almost 5 miles of yarn
– 5 pounds of beads
– 4 bags of clothing
– 1 kitchen trash bag of fabric scraps
Emptied storage containers – 1 tackle box, 1 large shipping tote, 6 shoe drawers, 4 5″ x 8″ bead containers
Bags of trash thrown out – 4
Missing things found – 1 hat I thought was stolen
WIPs discovered – 3
And here’s the way everything looks now… This is the closet nook, with its permanently stained floor and tight space. It doesn’t look great, but it does look so much better.
On the left side is the majority of my fabrics.
On the right side is batting, fleece, felt, purse handles, and zippers.
In between is a bag of fiber fill, bubble wrap, and some reusable shopping totes. There’s shipping supplies and unused yarn storage on the tops.
Along that same wall is the “wall of yarn”. The big yarn wall. I’ll be donating a few more skeins (some of the stuff piled on top) of yarn tomorrow. There’s a lot here but its mostly sorted by type and I can easily find what I’m after.
Also, it looks pretty. 🙂
The beading table, wire shelf holding my large skeins of yarn, and a few articles of clothing hanging up. There’s still some clutter off to the left, but most of that will be either donated or taken to a crafty day and passed around and what’s not claimed will be donated. I really want to find a more aesthetic solution for storage here but there’s so many tiny bits and pieces, I’m not sure what else I could use.
The sewing desk, my thread on the walls, and my dress forms. The cardboard boxes on the beading table are waiting for addresses to be shipped out, hopefully in the next few days.
The little yarn wall, and my earring displays. And Sashi. Sashi is very important.
I’ve spent most of today working on my craft room, finishing the cleaning, tidying, and general shifting of stuff around. I got a lot done today though back there.
- I had a lovely gentleman pick up a trash bag full of scraps for his quilter husband. I may have a few more for him later on. For some reason he told me where he works, so when I finish my quilt blocks I can probably swing by there and drop it off to him.
- I moved things that were in my fabric drawers and small shoe drawers into the drawers the scraps were in. Apparently I have literally around a hundred zippers.
- I sorted all my beads, culling a big pile to be donated and emptying out 2 5″ x 8″ containers. I might actually be able to empty out a third if I move a few things around a bit.
- I found a finished pot holder, plus one that just needs bias tape sewn on it so I’m going to try to finish that tomorrow.
- I found a hat I knitted a few years ago that I thought was stolen at a craft fair.
- I collected another 3 shopping bags worth of stuff, bringing me up to 13 bags donated from my craft room.
- I sorted all my fabrics, adding a few to donation bags, and put all the rest away, which enabled me to put the big grey tote out on the patio, empty.
In doing all this, I freed up 6 shoe-storage drawers, 2 bead containers, and 1 large grey shipping tote.
I still need to vacuum but tomorrow I am going to try to get some sewing done. I have that pot holder, 8 more quilt squares, and a skirt I started a few months ago that needs finishing. All easy projects, I just need to actually get started.